Holy Shit.
I swear I have anxiety or something, cause my mind will never shut the hell up even if I am just begging it to. It probably explains the headaches, crazy dreams, lack of sleep, and jumping to crazy conclusions and exxagurating shit that isnt even a big deal. I’m so annoyed with my thoughts like PLEASE STOP.
In general, everything is just blah tonight. Twitter has never been so unappealing to me. Since when did this social network turn into a fucking diary? You love a boy? Get the balls to tell him. If you think you cant say it cause he’ll reject you, well then looks like you already have your answer. Someones being a bitch? Say it to their face. Your life sucks? Welcome to the human race.
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School, and people are just so beyond annoying. How I wish to dear God there was at least a place in driving distance to get the fuck away from here for a while. Whether it’s just a field or park or some shit I dont even care.
Each year my town seems smaller and smaller, and people are getting more and more in my face. I do not like any of you. I want to start my own life and be set free from this stupid washed up town.
These will be best memories that I will never forget.
Here we are, seventeen and beyond stupid, two best friends just going out on an adventure to get away from the same old washed up town. We looked beyond unhuman, in sweats, no bras, unbrushed hair and not even a drop of makeup on our face. Just getting in the car and picking a random road, and driving straight down it, heading out to nowhere and excited to see what we discover. I dont think I’ve ever aten so much in my life. And she just sat there amazed by how much food I hauled in, and then joined me. We drove almost an hour away from our house. And listened to Drake… of course… had lifetalks, laughed our asses off, simply having the best time and being compelltey happy by just driving in my car filled with dairy queen cups and mcdonalds bags. It’s amazing how much fun I can have while just sitting there in the same space as her. She is beyond my bestfriend; she’s my sister, my other half. I mean damn, how many people can you do that with? Completley sober, just get in a car and drive to wherever, not stopping or actually doing anything, and manage to have the time of your life?
I’m not even lucky. I’m just blessed.
& I just can’t look, it’s killing me.
